Tuesday, May 27, 2008


repugnance hatreD LOVE

From hate comes love...

You can't truly love a person unless you hate a part of them.

There is a thin line between......

Evolve, survive, love and hate!



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Monday, May 26, 2008

Pure Randomness

Perhaps the greatest sense that man possesses is his sense of humor

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Public Brainstorm

There was a time when I thought I was crystal clear about everything. Now I seem to live in a fog of confusion and hesitation. Recently it seems as if the world is running in the opposite direction and my ill attempts at moving seem to take me nowhere. As if I am running in place like a fast treadmill in which I can't find the emergency breaks too. I wish to run away--far far away. The constant spinning of the earth has got me dizzy. I feel nauseous of staying put while the earth spins rapidly around me. I sleep a lot now, perhaps to escape. I love to dream. I think I could sleep all day and not feel bad about not getting anything done. Sleep is my drug now that substitutes my want for more. I have come to realize that I can't get everything I want. It was a hard lesson to learn and perhaps I have not learned it. My stubbornness will always get the best of me. My willingness to throw myself into a situation no matter what the consequences, will be the death of me. I think I am good at blaming everyone, but I am best at blaming myself. I don't know what to do anymore. Running in place seems to wear me out and staying put depresses me.

Recently I have discovered what does move me. I think it is people's doubt in me. Their doubt has turned into my doubt. Thus leading me to write this rambling brainstorm of where my life is headed. I come across people who for a brief moment see what I see in myself. Then they leave. I guess their sole purpose was to remind me of me. I wish they wouldn't leave though. Everyone to their own agenda.

One day I wish to see the world. Travel on foot and speak to everyone and see everything. Hear and smell the different things that my body wants to experience. Sometimes I have a fantasy of packing up everything and leaving.

I need to get some sleep....